Love isn't finding a perfect person. It's seeing an imperfect person perfectly.

To tell euu the true. my ideal husband material guy would be of a gentlemen type.
Guys who treats ladies with respects. Open door for lady or even pulled chair for lady at an appropriate venue or atmosphere. Holding hands where ever we are, when ever we could. Enjoy each others company and always share each others point of view.

I may gave euu lots of wrong ideas at times. Seriously i dun feel even a lil bit of happy when i tell euu bout mi getting disturb by others. Sorry if i gives euu a wrong idea but please do not assume before euu even ask.

After my relationship with the 2 year plus didn't work out, I've changes a lot. Have a different point of view in life. Euu can say that i'm sort of a loner last time as i hardly go out with moi fren even once in 6 months. Euu can ask them. I'm sorry to say, but I only noticed how important a fren means when moi world collapse. They are the one who come to me when i'm lost. When i am at moi worst. When i dun even recognise who am i anymore. That's when i realise how lousy i am as a fren. I never really contacted them when i'm in a relationship. And yet they still treat mi as one dear fren when i need someone. I felt that i'm the worst.

I tell myself, they even took the effort to take turns to keep me accompanied just bcos they were afraid that i'll do anything silly with the state i'm in... I've decided not to be a burden to anyone anymore. I've to get hold of myself. They can't forever made arrangement just for mi as they themselves also have a bf and family of their own. At first, I tried to act and believed that i'm happy and that i amd alright even if i'm alone. But the truth is, I still will cry secretly when i'm alone. I can't do a single things on moi own but just kept crying and sobbing. This lasted for few weeks. From then on, I tell myself. I must change to be a better person. I change to become more talkative. Always put on a smile. Cos when euu are smiling, people will be drawn more towards euu as they felt comfortablbe around euu. It's natural when euu are a cheerful person, euu tend to have more frens. Nobody wants to befriend with an emo person. Basically, I've afraid to be lonely. I started to put in more effort for myself. I starts to plan for moi future. I prefer to look at the bright side and believe that there is still lots of good things in this world that is waiting for mi.

I'm sorry if my change may make euu feel uncomfortable. I'm still ready to accept changes. Cos onli from changes, euu will improve and be a better person. It's not onli for euu but also for myself. So please do not think that i change just bcos of euu. Actually without euu knowing, I'm already trying to adapt with the way euu treat mi.

Sealed Wif a Kiss~